Beginning 2021 the best approach

Begin of 2021
and I’m surprisingly lacking the “New Yr, New Me!” social media bombardment.

This appears a
displaced begin to the brand new yr.

Contemplating we’ve
come from 2020 and we’re nonetheless going by the upheaval of Covid in our lives
it actually isn’t a shock.

It seems like we’ve
inadvertently dragged 2020 into 2021.

I am surprisingly
fairly joyful the brand new yr has began.

I’m not one for
“new yr, new me” stuff. I’ve all the time been one who simply carries on with the stream.
It’s, in spite of everything, simply one other day, of one other month into one other yr.

However I want this
yr to be totally different.

We then had
4 kids with complicated and interchanging particular academic wants at house.

As above I used to be
positive. I relished within the struggle.

Residence Training
wasn’t actually a struggle. I used to be in my factor and I simply did my “trainer factor” and
I genuinely consider that all of us thrived in it.

Then all of us adjusted
to covid life publish lockdown. There wasn’t actually a struggle wanted. So I ended.

I’ve watched
individuals round me obtain wonderful issues throughout and past lockdown. Some began
new companies, others took on house schooling after weeks of tears and frustration
and a few have taken up new hobbies or made outdated hobbies thrive.

I didn’t. I simply
stopped.

Previous to lockdown
I signed again as much as Genes Reunited to hold on my outdated household tree and family tree
analysis. I’m a part of a Kitney Fb group and after 4 years of inactivity it
grew to become energetic once more. So I signed up with the intent to begin once more.

Nope. I did it
after I was requested a query within the group however didn’t go into it any additional.

I had
actively requested for artwork gear final Christmas so I may keep on and deal with
my art work. Lockdown ought to have supplied me with the time, alternative and motion
to create extra.

No. I solely created
2 items of artwork final yr; one was carried out earlier than lockdown and the opposite just a few weeks
into lockdown.

I had plans to
learn extra books, to jot down extra weblog posts right here, to begin a brand new weblog and get again
to writing about religion and faith and had plans to be extra energetic and inventive
within the backyard.

I didn’t do any
of it. I ended. I wasn’t combating lockdown, youngsters being house or the worry
of being contaminated. I simply stopped.

That isn’t me.

In fact, there
are many optimistic issues that I did do.

I began working
for our church on their social media accounts in addition to creating a number of interactive
actions for our church group to do throughout lockdown. I used to be holding a Zoom
Quiz night time as soon as a month which was actually enjoyable for household and pals. I managed to
take heed to round 40 audio books (is that this sacrilege towards precise books?) Oh and
I bought fats. Which isn’t essentially a nasty factor because the meals was all the time nice.

The church associated
actions had been good as a result of they helped a technology who’re pc illiterate
to truly have “church” in a time once they would have in any other case missed out.

Nevertheless, exterior
of that I don’t assume I’ve carried out greater than survive day after day. I do know for a lot of that
may be an achievement in itself and I don’t need to take away from these individuals however
for me, it isn’t lots.

I normally really feel
like I can share a weblog publish of my artwork for the yr, what we’ve carried out exercise sensible,
how the kids have progressed on XYZ or what I’ve personally achieved however I can’t
this yr.

It actually bothers
me. I COULD have carried out a lot extra.

Though this
isn’t a “New Yr, New Me” publish that is positively a publish that makes me extra
accountable to what I do going forwards.

Does anybody else
really feel the identical? Really feel such as you need to obtain extra this coming yr than final?